Fuck ...

Test or I shall say exam today. Utterly don't know how to do & I just simply shut down the computer & sleep. Is not I gave out easily, I did try, but still, I can't manage to do. Lecturer come to me, asking me why I give up, I told her I don't even know how to do & just give me a zero! I'm just wondering, if I'm not interested in education anymore, what for I'm forcing myself. What for I force myself to wake up every morning, bus to school and when at school, I can just simply do my own thing & not listening to lesson. What I really want?? I seriously don't know.. I once promised myself that I want to study hard. People said, ITE is just In The End, but, I always told them, is okay, study first, can slowly go poly too. But, why am I giving up everything now? Its seem, I doesn't even have the confidence anymore. And in facts, don't have motivation too! Sighs... Seem that things are all changing :( I wonder why.. Every night, I'll wonder. But, I still don't know what's the reason. And, I'm seriously tired of many things.